Give up?

Halo.
Been a long time ya.
Sekarang tahun 2019. Ini sudah 8 tahun gue berada di Blog ini.

Sekarang adalah masa-masa gue yang dimana harus mencari sebongkah berlian. Tak akan cerita tentang besok akan ada ulangan atau UAS dan sebagainya lagi. Sudah tidak jaman di hidup gue.

Its been a hard times lately. I feel like I want give up, but sometimes i think why i must give up when i'm not do 100% yet from my effort?

I need time to think and surrender to God, when my effort didnt give me a result, i just want 1% result please.
My effort is more then others, but why i still like this? Where is the mistakes?

I dont know.
From me, almost give up.